alone....

have u ever feel alone even though you were surrounded by people you know ur whole life?

i have... in fact i feel alone right now.. funny isn't it.. NO!! it's not funny.. even ur own family can make u feel alone n lonely... n in my case, it's my own sister... we're so close but yet it feels like we're thousand n thousand miles apart...

i juz dun know what else she wants from me.. i mean i've tried to be the best sister 4 her.. i guess i'm not gud at that.. being a sister.. she hurts me sooo many times that i can't even count anymore.. igtkan i'm going to get used to this feeling n oh my, how i was wrong... the different is, now i can hold my tears a lil bit longer than i used 2..

my, my.. 1st post n i'm blogging about loneliness.. how miserable my life is... but i know i'm strong enough 2 go trough this.. i'll alwiz have Allah right n he's never far away... how i wish i can pray right now... :(

to my sister, tq again 4 hurting me... everyday i pray that i can juz go someplace far away from u.. ya Allah plz granted my wish.. i juz wanna go somewhere far away... i juz wanna start over.. plz ya Allah...